Hanging on by a very tiny seed

John 20:29 Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”

 

It happens every year.   The first sun shinny day of the year I walk to my garden with eager anticipation to get the first glimpse of green springing out of the dreary ground.  And…..every year it hits me like a ton of bricks from the sky.  I look down and all I see is ground….. Dead, lifeless ground. The thoughts start zig zagging through my mind faster than a bee could buzz from flower to flower (if there were any)    My mind begins to play tricks on me.  I play through all things I could have done better last year to prevent the possibility of a doomed garden. 

It is then that I realize.  My thoughts have little to do with the flower that has not shown through and more to do with a lesson to me about faith.

The flower is there.  I planted it several years ago.  I covered it for the winter and even went so far as to mark it so I can protect it from my crazy moments of caffeinated weed pulling frenzies.  It is there.  It comes up every year. It is right beneath the soil.  It is just not quite time to rise up for the summer.

I have seen the flower every year and yet the absence of it for a few months plays with my mind and the unbelief it was never there or ever will be again.  I have the fortune of seeing it, touching it, smelling it every summer yet still struggle it will never exists again. 

It is no doubt then that I also  struggle with my faith in God from time to time.  I will have moments of early spring where it seems as though the winter has stripped me of life.

God is there.  God has always been there……God has planted himself into my heart.  God is just under the soil waiting for the right moment to spring forth.  I have to be careful to pull the weeds out around the flower and wait to see.

Until then I am hanging on by a very tiny seed.  But the bible assures that …..that is enough for today:  He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed…………………………..Nothing will be impossible for you.”  Matthew 17:20