Reality of Real life

 

 

I contemplated posting nothing at all.

 

I contemplated ignoring the fact the outcome was not what I anticipated or desired.

 

I wanted to forget.  I wanted others to forget too.

 

 

But, that is not real life.

 

Real is doing everything in my power to achieve a perfect ending

 

only.......................

 

the perfect ending is not my idea of what a perfect ending should look like.

 

My mind keeps repeating

 

"Michelle, there is a lesson in this somewhere."

 

It must be too soon for that lesson to reveal itself?

 

My brain tells me

There is a reason, a lesson......................

My heart doesn't believe it.......................

My heart blames me

It beats ..what if...if only.....why didn't........

 

I do know

 

God has a way of teaching me through unconventional ways. 

 

Monarchs are my hymns

 

&

 

Photographs make the Word leap higher off the page and fill it with the breath of life

 

So as I sit in silence with a lifeless habitat

 

I wonder.

 

When will this start to make sense?

 

Then

 

My eye catches the very first blog about my little critters.

 

It all began with Deuteronomy 31:8

 

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

 

 

So. 

I will start here. 

God has gone before me. 

God is with me. 

There is a lesson here somewhere. 

 

It may just be a while before I realize the lesson.

 

Do not be discouraged.

 

 

 

 

 

 



messengers MESSAGE

The hour has already come for you to wake up from your slumber, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed.

Romans 13:11



‘Wake up, wake up, Deborah!
  Wake up, Wake up, break out into song!

Judges 5:12

 

 

 

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity.

1 Timothy 4:12

 

 

 

 

He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed.....you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will moveNothing will be impossible for you.”

Matthew 17:20

 

 



Again he said, “What shall we say the kingdom of God is like, or what parable shall we use to describe it? It is like a mustard seed, which is the smallest of all seeds on earth. Yet when planted, it grows and becomes the largest of all garden plants, with such big branches that the birds can perch in its shade."

Mark 4:30-32

 

 

An extraordinary message was given on earth

begining with

a tiny infant messenger


Wether the moutains you face are dirty dishes, troubled relationships, debt, loss or car pool schedules

YOU can move them!
YOU are not as small as you think. 

 

 

wait................

 

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you;

he will never leave you nor forsake you.

Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

Deuteronomy 31:8

 

Wait

 

          The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him.
Lamentations 3:25

Wait

 

 

For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie.

Habakkuk 2:3

 

Waiting

 

I am a Hardy Weed

There are many things that I am.

There are many things that I am not.

To clear my mind I stepped outside to the garden

I knelt down into the dirt

& a slight breeze....softer than a feather blew across me

They quickly fall away - mark 4:17

 

Just a moment before everything was perfect

 



All it took was a slight breeze, a tug at the heart, a whisper, a suggestion and it was scattered

 

I became a bit frantic. 

 

Not because I had to chase after a seed packet.  Because one word lept from all the packages

ANNUAL.

 

 ANNUAL:  A plant that completes its entire life cycle in a single growing season

 

Is that what I am?  ANNUAL.  Do I start and stop in a single season?

 

Searching my garden was like digging deep into my soul.  I was frightened at what I might find. 

 

But there in the distance I saw a hint of green.  A reminder I have been here before.  A reminder I am coming back again.

 

rooted and established - Ephesians 3:17

 



There are many things that I am not. 

 

But, There are many things that I am.

 

I am a wife of a Pastor.   I am a wife.  I am a mother, sister, daughter.  I am a friend.

 

There are a lot of expectations I plant in myself.

 

There are a lot of expectations planted on me. Sometimes only known after I have done something really great ....or........really bad.

 

At moments I desire to be an Annual.  Shinning my showy, bright colors and disappearing at the first frost before the cold of winter even hints at staying.

 

But I am not.

 

I am a Perennial.

 

And my guess is, most people would not know that about me.

 

I am hardy. I bloom through the seasons. I am exposed to full Sun.

 

 

 

 

 

 

First and foremost. 

 

I am firmly rooted in Christ. 

 

Secondly I am deeply rooted where God has placed me.   Leaving would be like digging half of a flower up in the scorching heat of summer.  Part of the plant stays and all of the plant is in shock because a part is gone and part remains.

 

I may not be the exact flower you were hoping for. 

 

But I find it a little amusing that one of my favorite perennials is actually a weed :)

 

 

 

 

I am  Hardy.  I am a Perennial.  I am rooted.

 

I am a Butterfly weed.

 

Just a weed to some.

 

Life to a Butterfly.

 

(The next day.  After chasing down several packets of annuals.....  I decided it was best to purchase and plant several more Perennials instead! )

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