It has been less than three days since I departed Pacem im Terris and already I feel at times the waves are hitting against me at a rapid pace...I can see the life buoy, but, it is just out of reach.
While in my hermitage I found great comfort in keeping the tiniest flame flickering
The candle was an invitation,
more to myself than God.
It drew me in to sit down, listen , look, feel and know God was surrounding me, everywhere and at every moment.
Naturally, I figured I could easily repeat this tiny comfort when I returned home.
How hard can it be? A trip to Target for a candle?
Well this a.m. it proved nearly impossible
2 candle attempts-because neither will stay lit!
see all those matches.
SEE all those MATCHES!
notice, neither candle has a flame.
My peaceful morning with God was quickly becoming more of a comedy routine.
I was not about to give in.
I wanted my portion of Pacem
Thankfully I found this:
not exactly the type of peaceful symbol I was hoping for...........
A beautiful hip or shoulder...I don't know....some kind of bone my son found in the woods made a lovely candle holder.
But, let's be real,
in this world God's peace is really tough to find at times.
While I was with God Pacem im Terris
God gave me the gift of understanding and experiencing a extremely small portion, a hint of HIS peace that I will some day be granted every moment in heaven.
It was so refreshing and calming I long to repeat it everyday.
But - I still am living in this world.
Striving to be in it
but not of it.
And, sometimes that will require me to stretch my imagination & not give up when the obvious falls short
of bringing peace.God is always there.
He may just prefer to show Himself to me in a dead animal bone candle holders vs a pretty girly one.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27
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